Thursday, July 3, 2014

Having Hart: Part Deux.

Alright, so I decided to make this a little bit easier on everyone. I keep getting some complaints about how long they're having to wait to get their hands on Having Hart. Well, since I am not publishing via Kindle, Kobo, B&N, etc. I offered it in paperback. Now then, I also said you could order through me. Which is true, you can. You have to pay via PayPal, send me your address, wait for me to get copies in, sign them, get them to the post office, etc. 

Oh, you'd still have to wait. 

Here's what you can do instead: 

Having Hart

Yeah, that's the direct link to the Createspace store where you can buy your paperback! 

You still want it signed, you have a few options. 

1) When you get it in you can mail it to me, I will sign it, and mail it back to you. 
2) You can find me at Little Rock Book Jam next year. (Where I will also be selling copies of HH)
3) You can find me out somewhere. I live in Dallas, it's like geocaching except with me. 
4) ... I'm really running out of ideas at this point. 

You get the idea. 

There's your link. Go meet Hart and Marlow. 

XOXO, 
Ashley

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

What exactly do the Street Light in Wonderland look like?



Well, it's funny you should ask. You see, it's Tuesday. Which means, it's Teaser Tuesday. Now, I don't have a beautiful teaser to give you all today. No, I have something better. I have your first look and blurb of the book itself. 

Are you ready? I am so, so ready. 

Here is your blurb: 


"Suicide is a word commonly spoken in hushed tones and darkened doorways whenever I was near. It held a stigma that people never seemed to truly understand. It usually preceded words such as: selfish, mental illness, hopeless, damned, and my least favorite, coward.

The word suicide held one specific meaning for me: Eli Nicholas Hampshire. " 

Shainelyn Bradshaw led a normal, happy life, until one night, her boyfriend of two years, committed suicide. 

A year later, Shaine was still trying to figure out her new world without him. 

Grief had consumed every aspect of her life. A once outgoing, bubbly, piano prodigy, now did nothing more than survive.  

Until the day Langston Fletcher burst into her life, breaking down every wall Shaine had built, then standing triumphantly atop the rubble.  Langston turned Shaine's new world upside down.

Langston shows Shaine that there is more to life than merely surviving. He shows her that the entire world is her personal Wonderland, and the best times of her life are yet to come. He's going to make sure of it.

But just when Shaine thinks there is a chance at a life, and maybe even love after Nicholas, life shows her once again, it has other plans.

Sometimes the same ghosts that used to keep you company, come back to haunt you. 

A story of adventures, life, and love.



What else... What... Else... Oh! There is going to be a SLiW novella! Yes, there really is. I usually hate books series. I really, really do. But, you will understand why I chose to write this once you have this beautiful book in your hands. Until then, just be the wonderful, slightly judgmental twats you are and judge me for it. 

You want Having Hart? You got it. You can start sending me your $15 via paypal this week! (Please, please also message me your address. I will not (because I am technologically challenged) get it if you just add it to the paypal thing.) I will place an order on Saturday for however many books I need to get by then

IF you want to wait and get SLiW and HH together(!?!) you can do that! You just have to wait until the end of the month and will probably get both books in August. 

I have one last thing to say and then I'll shut up. I am going to post either the prologue or part of the first chapter of SLiW. Tell me which one you want! Do you want to know how it all started? Or do you want to know how Shaine meets Langston? It's up to you! 

That's all I've got. I HOPE you love the cover as much as I do. 

Have a beautiful day! 

XOXO, 
Ashley 

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Street Lights in Wonderland (WYNTK)

Is this the blog you've been waiting for? This blog kind of makes me want to puke a little bit. 

This is WYNTK: What You Need To Know

Here's what's official: 

Street Light in Wonderland has a cover. A magnificent, beautiful cover. I am completely smitten with. If you are a blogger and want to be part of the cover reveal, send me a message, let me know, let's do this shit. If you're a blogger and not interested, go screw yourself. (I'm kidding! ...Sort of.)

What else? Oh, you might be interested in this: 


It has been brought to my attention that the original Alice in Wonderland premiered in theaters (in NYC and London) on July 26, 1951. It seems like a great day to release a book to me. I cannot wait for you to meet Shaine and Langston (but not Hughes). And to take a few words from someone who we will leave anonymous, "This is my best work yet. I would hate for you to miss it." (Except, I won't be pulling mine if you spoil the ending.)

It's also Tuesday. You know what means right? Teaser Tuesday. 


I wish I could express how much I love Langston (but not Hughes). I just hope you all do as well. I cannot wait until you all have this book in your hands. 

Release date - Check!
Teaser - Check! 
Cover Reveal - Coming Soon!! 

Have a beautiful day, 

Ashley 

Friday, June 20, 2014

Who Doesn't Love A...

Sale?! Am I right? I'm right. Thanks for letting me know.

Seriously, both Something Worth Fighting For and Silence are on sale, right now, on Amazon for 99 freakin' cents. How awesome is that? So, if you haven't picked them up, go do that! Right now! Seriously! Better yet, if you know someone that hasn't read them and you think they absolutely need to, gift them! Don't pirate that shit, it makes me want to stab you.

Besides, look how pretty those covers are. Who wouldn't want to see that when they turn on their Kindle? Okay, that was pushing it, but really, they're pretty.

I'm even going to make it easy for you:

Something Worth Fighting For
Silence


If you guys are super awesome and we get these ranked high enough, I'll do a giveaway for a signed copy of Having Hart. Right? Right. I won't tell you the magic number, but, there is one. 

Want a SLiW teaser? Of course you do! 


Um, *cough* Team Langston. 

Anyway, the copies of HH will be ordered soon. I will post my Paypal address and you can send your $15 there and message me your address. Please, do not include it in your Paypal message because I absolutely will not get it. I am technologically impaired. I WILL have copies of Having Hart for sale in Little Rock next year. That's a long fuckin' way away, I don't need to think about that right now. I'm rambling. 

I am (hopefully!) going to attempt to find the perfect cover of SLiW this weekend. Once I have that secured we still start looking forward to a release date(!!!). I cannot wait to share this book with y'all. I just can't. 

I'm done rambling, I swear. 

XOXO, 
Ashley

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Having Hart Announcement:


I have talked this announcement over until I'm blue in the face. And after the opinion of some very important people in my life, I have decided on the following: 

In light of recent events I do not feel it is appropriate for me to release Having Hart at this time. It is suspended indefinitely. The content is reflected in the things that have happened in the public in the last couple of weeks. With that being said, I cannot find it in my heart to put this book out right now. 

I will offer a print edition ONLY and you can read at your own risk. But, this is your fair warning. This book has subject matter that is sensitive and will break your heart. 

You may buy copies directly from me, in the next couple of weeks, for $15 and this will include your shipping. I will sign and number each copy. 

This does not and will not affect the sale that will go on for both Something Worth Fighting For and Silence. So, if you have not bought those yet, they will be on sale very, very soon starting at only .99 cents for your Kindle. I will still be giving copies of those away on my Facebook page. 

Thank you for understanding and I am so sorry if you are disappointed. 

I will be working on Street Light in Wonderland in the meantime and hopefully be able to move up its release date in light of this. That is definitely something to look forward to! 

Again, thank you, 

Ashley

Monday, June 9, 2014

The Proof Is In The...


Mail. No, seriously, it is. Having Hart is finished, formatted, and on its way to me sometime this week. I'm ecstatic that it's finished. I'm worried about how it's going to be received though. It will most definitely not be everyone's cup of tea. That's okay, I'm not everyone's cup of tea. I'd rather be one person's shot of whiskey. 

With that being said, I am not moving on to finalizing Street Lights in Wonderland. It obviously has months and months before it is ready for release. So many, in fact, I have no idea when it will be released. At this point, I can only say it will be before the end of the year. 

If you do not follow me on Facebook, you really, really should. I'm much more entertaining than in blog form. Facebook 

What comes after SLiW? 

I wish I knew. There are several things I'm working on but at this point, I cannot say for sure what I'm doing next. Right now, I want to focus on the release of HH and prepping SLiW for its debut. 

You just want teasers. Who the hell am I kidding? 

I have one from SLiW. I am no longer posting teasers from HH since it's coming out so soon. OH! And the first two books will be on sale... soon. I can't remember if it's this weekend or next weekend. Either way, I'll post that too. I'll be giving away a copy of each! Then when Hart releases I will be giving away a copy of it as well. I also have a print ARC up for grabs. Stay tuned, kids. 


“Here’s the thing, Friendless Shaine, I’ve got a gypsy soul and my heart went wild one beat from my very first breath. I need a constant sense of adventure, lust, love, and to capture every moment of life as it is thrown at me. Are you in?”

I'll shut up now.

XOXO,
Ashley

Monday, June 2, 2014

Uncharted Territory


Today I started something I thought I would never do. A follow up. What? Are you surprised? I sure as shit am. I have a serious dislike for sequels, they're never as good as the first. Which is why this may never see the light of day. But let it be known: 

Street Lights in Wonderland could very well have a second book. 

Pause, breathe, blink. 

Now, I did add a second part to Silence, yes. It is all included in one book though. This would be an entirely separate book/novella/novel? Fuck, I don't know yet. 

SLiW reads strictly in Shaine's POV. You see everything that she does, feel what she does, know what she does. But what about Langston? Would you want to know what he thinks? Now, before you get the wrong idea, this will not be SLiW repeated. I will absolutely not do that. Sorry, not happening. 

It would however take place five years after we left Shaine and Langston. 

I'm just thinking out loud here. I should really toss this idea to my beta's. 

The thing is, I adore Shaine and Langston. I just don't feel like their story is finished. I want to write more of them. While SLiW has an ending, there is room for more. 

Having Hart... I want to finish this, I do. So much so I have been threatened with the taking away of some of my favorite things if I do not work on it this week. Don't ask, you don't want to know the consequences of my procrastination. It's ugly. 

My head is talking out of my fingers again. 

Teasers? Teasers are good, right? 


"If a girl can feel so deeply that even death can't stop her heart from longing... That's the kind of girl whose world I want to be a part of." 



"It had always amazed me how the sun would perpetually die every night just so the moon could have its turn to shine.  How unselfish the sun must be to give up the place in the sky it so rightfully owned. To allow someone else in your spotlight so they could see the world from your point of view. In this life, I would be the sun and Shainelyn would always be the night sky. I would die thousands of deaths to give her the chance to shine her light on this fortunate world."


I really think that's all I have. Which mostly included a metric shit ton of rambling. 

Oh! Okay, so I'm going to be signing at the Little Rock Book Jam. Yes, it's next year. Yes, you really should be getting excited about it now though. So, make your plans to come see us then. Here is the link to the website and go find them on FB. I'm pretty sure there's a link to their page on mine. 

Little Rock Book Jam

Now, that's really all I have. 

XOXO, 
Ashley

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Updates!

Anyone else ever feel like there is something you're supposed to be doing, but you just can't quite put your finger on what that thing might be? That is quite possibly the story of my life. While it would be a very short, rather boring and uninformative life, it would be mine. 

What have I been doing? Right, that's why you're here. 

Having Hart is almost finished! Whaaaaat? That's right. It will, in fact, be ready on time for the June 27th release date. That kicks a whole lot of ass. 

Want to know what else? The very first draft of Street Lights in Wonderland is finished as well! There is no set date or even a tentative release date on it yet, but sooner rather than later? Later rather than sooner? I haven't decided. 

I should have teasers to put in here. I really, really should. I just don't... At the moment. Mostly because I can't remember what I've already posted and I suck for that. Wait, I do! At least for SLiW. I've posted a lot about HH already so you pretty much know that it's going to be awesome. I now must work on getting you all hyped up for SLiW. And honestly, very honestly, it's my favorite book so far. That's saying something because I love, love, love SWFF. 

Speaking of SWFF and Silence, they will be undergoing edits... Again. At some point this summer. I doubt there will be a new cover, but who knows! I could surprise you. I'll stop rambling and give you what you came for. Teasers: 



“I wonder if Alice ever wanted to stay in Wonderland.” I said quietly. 
“What do you mean?” 
“If maybe Alice tried to kill herself and that’s why she ended up in Wonderland. If falling through that mirror was just a metaphor for her trying to end her own life. Maybe that is the in-between stage. Her personal version of purgatory. It seems like it would be a nice place to be.” 
“Do you want to kill yourself, Shaine?” Travis’ voice hitched. 
“It would make breathing so much easier.” I took a labored breath. “I think I would just really like to be Alice for a little while.”


"I never think too much anymore. Life is so delicate, Shaine. If I think too much about every little thing that could go wrong," Langston took a deep breath, shaking his head as he blew it out all at once. "I don't think I would ever get over it. I would be stuck unreasonably worried about how to make a sand castle build on the shore not fall victim to the waves. I realized that I would have to just let it go and let life happen." 

That's all for now! 

XOXO,
Ashley


Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Street Lights in Wonderland


I knew at some point I needed to make this post. Since I'm over 150 pages and 50,000 words into SLiW, I figured it's about time to let y'all in on what it's all about.

SLiW starts out with grief in the most raw, painful form. It deals with the highs and the lows and the moving on. I know grief personally. I know how it takes you on a rollercoaster ride, chews you up, spits you out, and leaves you aching to your core. It's a brutal ride with a few beautiful stops on the way. 

It's waking up one day knowing that you're not going to physically hurt at someones loss. 

That's how we get Shainelyn. 

Shainelyn is dealing with the suicide of her boyfriend, Nick. She is a piano prodigy without a name. She breathes classical music like people breathe air. But she is broken, like so many people are, because of suicide. That's when she stops playing and just gives up, just survives.

Now I need to stop here and address this: 

Suicide is not something that needs to be whispered about. It needs to be shouted about from the fucking rooftops because every single day there is someone struggling with making that decision. There is always someone looking for a reason to keep going on. To wake up again the next day. 

It's finding light in the dark. 

And that's when Shaine meets Langston. 

Langston is the epitome of free. He's laid back, funny, charismatic, adventurous, smart, and gives Shaine a reason for wanting to move on. Langston helps Shaine realize that it's okay to keep loving someone who is gone, but it's also okay to fall in love again. 

Friendless Shaine and Langston but not Hughes, of course, have a beautiful love story. And with all my books, there is a twist. This twist, this one is good. It turns the entire story upside down and inside out. 

This book is unlike my others. The characters are just as real as the other books, if not more so, but Shaine and Langston are very special to me. They have a relationship that doesn't start out at love at first sight. It starts out as a friendship that turns into something more. It's finding strength, courage, and life after the worst. 

Alright, now I know some of you love to imagine what characters look like. That's fine and I like to do that as well. But for those of you who want my ideas of who Shaine and Langston are: 




I know my ladies will give me their ideas once they read about these two. But if I had to choose, this would be them. Okay, enough of my rambling. Here's your damn teaser. 



“Thanks,” he grinned, standing back up. “So, tell me, do you have a boyfriend? Or a girlfriend? I won’t judge.” 

“I am in a very serious relationship.” 

“Oh, anyone that goes here?” 

“Afraid not.” 

“What’s his name?”

“Netflix, we’re really hitting it off well. I can see it lasting for a while. Going the distance, ya’ know.”

Langston stared at me for a moment, blinking rapidly, his face contorted in a mix of confusion and amusement. “You have a sense of humor.” He finally started laughing. “That automatically makes you at least 76.3% better than any of the other girls here.”

“Well, I do aim to be an overachiever.”

“Want to go do something?”

“Huh?” I laughed incredulously, looking around the parking lot. “With me?”

“Yes, Friendless Shaine, I want to go do something with you.” He leaned against my car, reaching out to brush my hair away from my face.

“And what did you have in mind Langston but not Hughes?”

“Here’s the thing, Friendless Shaine, I’ve got a gypsy soul and my heart went wild one beat from my very first breath. I need a constant sense of adventure, lust, love, and to capture every moment of life as it's thrown at me. Are you in?”

I looked up at Langston, tilting my head to the side, and for the first time in a long while a genuine smile graced my lips. “Langston but not Hughes, I am so in.”



XOXO, 
Ashley

Monday, April 28, 2014

Cover Reveal: Having Hart



I've already had several questions about the cover of Having Hart. The main one is: Why is it so plain?! 

Having Hart is a complicated book for me. While Marlow and Hart were fun to write, they're funny, sarcastic, and well, Hart is simply Hart. It does have some very serious moments in it. 

Now, I did think of putting a model on the cover. 

But in the end, I wanted something different. I didn't want something that looked like the cover of every other contemporary/new age/whatever label you want to put on it, romance novel. Now, I understand that people are going to skip over this book because of a so-called "boring cover". But if they take two seconds to read the back/blurb, I think they're going to see something there. And if they don't, well, then they're missing out. 

Blurb for Having Hart: 



"I hope you live a beautiful life, Hart Ellis Adler. It is what you absolutely deserve. I know I will think of you often for you have been part of all of my favorite memories.
But make no mistake, you will from now on be the worst part of my favorite memories."


Marlow Tayte fell in love with Hart Alder at first sight, as cliché as it might be. But the feeling was definitely not mutual. After the most humiliating introduction in history, he left her in the worst spot imaginable, the friend zone. 

Two years later, Marlow is still in love with her best friend. The worst part? Marlow thinks Hart has no idea. 

Hart Alder is a proud notch on more than one girls bedpost. He drinks too much, talks with his fists, and has no problem taking home any girl that looks his way. 

There has only been one girl he ever truly wanted and it's the one he doesn't deserve. His best friend, Marlow. 

After a tragedy befalls the Tate family, Hart will realize that tomorrow is never guaranteed for anyone. He knows he has to get the only girl who has ever mattered. Only once he has her, he knows, keeping her is not an option.

A fateful decision, a broken heart, and a shattered trust.

Hart leaves Marlow at the lowest she has ever fallen. Her only choice is to start her life over, far, far away from Hart. But when he shows back up, she just can't make her own heart listen to her head. How do you leave behind the only person you've ever loved

What seems unforgivable will fail in comparison to what life has planned for them.

A story about forgiving all that is seemingly unforgivable.


If that didn't grab your attention, maybe a snippet will? 


“You know I can’t love you, Low. I don’t know how to. No one ever taught me how to love someone.” Hart reached out to touch me, causing me to jerk away as if he had burned me. 

“Love is not something someone teaches you, Hart! It’s something you feel; it’s an emotion. It’s not an equation, there is no formula, nothing there to decipher, there is no X or Y you can solve for. You learn how to love by loving someone, from experiencing it. Not how to love someone because a person necessarily taught you how. No professor or book can show you how to do it. It’s something that just happens and you buckle up and go for the ride. Whether that’s a straight and narrow road or a roller coaster. You hold on with both hands, hold your breath, and let go. Sometimes it comes to an abrupt end with a sudden jerk, or a short walk with a sudden stop on a dead-end street. Then every once in a while something special happens and it turns into a road trip. Your trip around the world. It’s taking the long way with someone that already feels like home.” I choked out the words, pushing away from him. 

“Marlow...” 

“Thank you though, you just made my decision for me. I think that was just about the worst thing I’ve ever had to hear. No reason for you to come over now, right? I mean there can’t possibly be anything else you can hurt me with. Unless maybe you want to tell me that Dawn’s pregnant and you’re getting married because that would be the cherry on top of this shit cupcake.” I held my hands up to keep him from touching me again. Apparently butterflies don’t give a crap about my broken heart. 

“Would you let me finish? Just let me speak!” Hart hissed as I took another step back. “Give me five minutes, Marlow, please.” 

“Why would I want to hear anymore, Hart? I give up, I’m no match for you. I will gladly fall on the sword to keep this from going on. You have a far superior powers when it comes to hurting me. You win and I am bowing out gracefully.” I curtsied, then turned with a quick snap. And with my head down to the ground, eyes blurred with unshed tears, I walked into my next class. 

Leaving both Hart and my own heart behind me yet again. 


What else? God, you want more? Greedy, greedy, I swear. Fine, I also have the name of book four and a teaser for it! 

The name of book four... Drum roll, if you please? 


Street Lights in Wonderland


“Thanks,” he grinned, standing back up. “So, tell me, do you have a boyfriend? Or a girlfriend? I won’t judge.” 

“I am in a very serious relationship.” 

“Oh, anyone that goes here?” 

“Afraid not.” 

“What’s his name?”

“Netflix, we’re really hitting it off well. I can see it lasting for a while. Going the distance, ya’ know.”

Langston stared at me for a moment, blinking rapidly, his face contorted in a mix of confusion and amusement. “You have a sense of humor.” He finally started laughing. “That automatically makes you at least 76.3% better than any of the other girls here.”

“Well, I do aim to be an overachiever.”

“Want to go do something?”

“Huh?” I laughed incredulously, looking around the parking lot. “With me?”

“Yes, Friendless Shaine, I want to go do something with you.” He leaned against my car, reaching out to brush my hair away from my face.

“And what did you have in mind Langston but not Hughes?”

“Here’s the thing, Friendless Shaine, I’ve got a gypsy soul and my heart went wild one beat from my very first breath. I need a constant sense of adventure, lust, love, and to capture every moment of life as it's thrown at me. Are you in?”

I looked up at Langston, tilting my head to the side, and for the first time in a long while a genuine smile graced my lips. “Langston but not Hughes, I am so in.”



There will be much more about book four later. Probably around/after Having Hart is released so stay tuned! 

That's all I've got. Seriously, this time. That's it. 

XOXO

Ashley

Monday, April 21, 2014

Silence answered: SPOILER ALERT.

Obviously whenever you publish a new book there are a lots of questions to be asked about who, what, when, where, and why. So I'm going to answer some of those pesky lingering questions about Silence. 

The one I get most often: 



What happened to Jane? 

In part one of Silence you meet Layna's mother, Jane. But in part two it seems as if she has flipped her switch completely. The thing is: She has. The death of a child is something I have seen first hand. From a dear family friend to my own family. When I was seventeen my brother died. Not in the same fashion as Taylor but nonetheless my parents lost a child. 

Now I am not saying that what Jane does is what happened to be personally. No, that's not the case at all. But I do know that one of two things happens. You either become better or bitter. In Jane's case, she became bitter. Jane blamed Layna. In in an outright sense but in a way all she could see was that Layna was the last one to see Taylor alive. Layna lived and Taylor didn't. And even though Jane will never know what happened in that car, she'll always know that her oldest daughter was the one behind the wheel. Did Layna cause the accident? No. But in her own screwed up way, that didn't matter. 

Soon after the accident was when Layna became pregnant with Monet. Jane had just lost her daughter and now one of hers was bringing a child into the world. No parent wants to see their teenager pregnant. (Unless you're seriously screwed up.) She told Layna she had two options: Adoption or Get Out. As in the book, adoption was not a choice for Layna. So she left. In Jane's eyes, Layna chose, what Jane saw as a huge mistake, over being there, going to school, and getting the help that, let's face it, Layna needed. 

All of Jane's children are gone. Lennix is in college, Layna is in Austin with Lennix, and Taylor is dead. All she has is time to sit around and think. Think about Taylor, what Layna had or had not done. She grew more and more bitter just sitting there in her misery. 

That's what happened to Jane. 


What happened to Kegan? 

I always had a soft spot for Kegan. He was funny, outgoing, caring, and a total man-slut. But much like Lennix, Kegan harbored a secret. Kegan is gay. 

When Lennix moved to Austin to go to school, he obviously was around Kegan. At the time Layna was living in an apartment with Lennix. (For those of you who haven't read the book, I should have said this was a huge spoiler. The entire blog.) When Lennix and Kegan started dating or sleeping with each other rather, Lennix didn't dare tell Layna. How would that look? Her brother dating the brother of her ex who she is currently pregnant by? Yeah, no. 

Layna and Kegan. Oh boy. The way Kegan treated Layna was for two reasons. 1) To make sure she wasn't using Finn. He wanted to see if she would sleep with him to get to his brother. Hell no she wouldn't. Come on, it's Layna. That was not going to happen. 2) Kegan is in hardcore lust with her brother. He doesn't want to admit he's gay. He's pissed at the entire world for the way he feels and Layna just looks like a good target. 

I write briefly about Kegan's alcohol and drug use. Unfortunately men and women like Kegan (who struggle with their sexuality) do turn to substance abuse. Kegan did this. Now, let's look at life from Kegan's view when we catch up with them in part two. 

Kegan is gay. He's hiding it from himself and Finn. He's drinking, using, and the guy that broke his heart? Yeah, his little sister just showed back up in his brothers life. Oh, and they have a kid together. Hello downward spiral, I've been meaning to get to you. Kegan is going to be an asshole. He doesn't want Finn and Layna together. He knows how he's treated Layna and once Finn gets his hands on that information? That can't be anything good for the two of them. 

He's not only protecting himself but Finn. 

He's also fighting his own demons. Drugs, alcohol, sleeping with women even though he's attracted to men. You're getting my point, right? 


Layna and Finn's personalities:

Now from my point of view, they don't change too terribly much. They just grow up. Who isn't different from the person they were in high school? I know I am damn sure am. I would never want to be that girl again. Not that Finn and Layna were bad people but they just simply grew up. 

Layna is a little bit harder than she was in HS. Why? The death of her sister, a single mother, a bad relationship, oh, and there's her bitch mother. Yeah, those things have a way of making you a little harder on the outside and a little broken on the inside. She knows she hurt Finn. There was no two ways about that. She pushes him away to protect both of them. 

Finn, oh, dear sweet Finn. When we left Finn, Layna had just broke his heart. He went to college, partied his ass off, slept with a bunch of different girls, and then finds Layna in the last place he expected. On top of that, he just found out his has a child. He's pissed off, he's still in love with Layna, and she doesn't want to be with him. 

The truth is: They just grew up. Everyone changes. 


Let's talk about sex, baby: 

These were the funnier questions for me to answer. "How come the sex scenes are so different?!" 

Um, hello. I can bet your first few times getting laid is far different from how you are getting it now. Hell, the guy you were with was probably so damn scared he couldn't even get it up! 

Awkward first sex to two (in Finn's extreme case) experienced people? Sex is going to change. We went from sweet, strange, and just being teenagers to two adults who just fucking want each other. 

Who doesn't like a little pin me up against the wall sex? Anyone? No? My point exactly. 

As they matured so did the sex scenes. You wouldn't want the same awkward sex with someone that you had in high school. No, that's just ridiculous. You would want straight combustibility. That's what Finn and Layna have. They're adults people. Get used to it. 

Where is Claudia? 

The better question is: Who the fuck cares? Would you want to talk to the monster that abused you? No? I didn't think so. 

Flashbacks: 

Okay, I've had mixed reviews about the flashbacks in part two. They're memories people, yes, they're going to be in there. I understand that some of you think it's redundant. I get that, I do. Some of them will be removed later when we go back for re-editing and formatting. But right now, they're there. I understand that you're reading the same thing again but people, it's just that, a memory for them. Does that make sense? Yes, again, we'll remove some of them. I'm sorry that you guys are kind of hating that. 

Yes, I do plan on re-editing some of this for some grammar mistakes. I know they're there. My lovely group of editors suck. No offense to them but... yeah. 


Alright, I think that's all I'm going to answer for now. There might be a part two of this later? I'm not sure. I hope that answers some of your questions and that you might be able to see it (mostly part two) from a different point of view. I know this was really long and a lot of rambling and I apologize for that. But I'm hoping I answered some of your questions and gave you a better understanding of not only how I saw the book but how I wanted them to be. 

Having Hart comes on June 27th. Whoa, that's like two months away. I really need to get busy on that. Hopefully I'll have a cover to show soon! So my bloggers, I have one on board, if anyone else wants it, let me know! 

That's all for now. 

XOXO, 

Ashley 

P.S. I'm sorry for the million typo's this probably has. I have two small children at my feet... Lol. 





Thursday, April 17, 2014

Slacker...


Tell me something I don't know, okay? However the only thing I'm slacking on is writing the updates for Adam and Darcy's story. You will be pleased to know that I finished the first round of edits for Having Hart today. 

Hart and Marlow's story is so good it hurts. No really, I cry every time I read it. The feels... OH, the feels. Ugh. 

Since I've been such a terrible blogger I will leave you a couple of teasers. Will that make up for it? Huh? A little? Maybe? Pretty please? 




"I hope you live a beautiful life, Hart Ellis Adler. It is what you absolutely deserve. I know I will think of you often for you have been part of all of my favorite memories.

But make no mistake, you will from now on be the worst part of my favorite memories. 

I hope one day that you lose yourself. May wherever you do this be somewhere that allows you to do so completely. And when you rise from the ashes of your former self you come back with a new-found grace and humility. Because it is by grace and humility that we learn how to humbly live our lives in a way that others may respect."

Marlow Tayte "Having Hart" 


"I had never seen anyone cry so much in my life. I was never a guy that cried and sure, I had made girls cry before but never the way Low had. It was the face of true heartbreak. The kind of heartbreak that permanently changes people."

Hart Adler "Having Hart" 

“You’re the girl I hold in a higher regard than everyone else. The princess up on the pedestal, virtually untouchable by lesser men. You’re the one that everyone has to try to live up to yet never does. I just never realized it until I didn’t have you.”

Hart Adler "Having Hart" 

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XOXO
Ashley

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Chapter Four - The Sinking of Atlantis


Ever wonder how it went when Adam met Darcy's parents for the first time? Here's your chance: Chapter Four - The Sinking of Atlantis



Chapter Four

Now it could just be me but there is a monumental amount of anxiety that comes with introducing your parents to a boy. It’s even worse when they just got used to the last guy you were with. Given it did take them three years to come around to Dean and I hid the fact he was an asshole. I guess that could give them reason to be leery.
“Are you sure about this?” I straightened Adam’s tie for the third time, standing in the doorway to my parents house. We were having an early Thanksgiving before going to Alabama to celebrate with his family. It would also be when he told them he was going back to Afghanistan. I wasn't sure which I was more nervous about at this point.
“Sunshine, I've got this.” He cupped his hand around my face, smiling at me. “Don’t worry about it. If I can survive sniper school and living with Atlas... Your parents?” He laughed, standing up a little straighter, more confident. “They’ll be easy.”
“Yeah, that’s what you think.” I mumbled, ringing the doorbell.
I had explained to Adam earlier that week that the Doctors Thomas squared were not affectionate people. While they did love me and I had no doubt about that, their love was shown in dollar signs, not hugs and kisses. Adam had not been impressed by the fact that I had grown up with, for the most part, absentee parents and an array of well paid nannies.
The door opened slowly and I could already feel my breath coming faster. I knew I was squeezing Adam’s hand way too tight. He was going to have to be brave enough for the both of us. “It’s okay,” he whispered before my father’s formidable shadow appeared on the concrete in front of us.
“Darcy Eloise, you look lovely.” His voice caused the hair on my arms to stand up. My father had never so much as spanked me but the sound of his voice alone could cause my stomach to turn with stress. He was one of those scary quiet types.
“Hello Father.” I gave him a small smile as he opened the door wide enough for us to step through. “Father, my boyfriend Adam Thornbriar. Adam, my father, Donovan Thomas.”
“Pleasure to meet you, sir.” Adam extended his hand and after a long pause my father finally shook it.
“Likewise, Adam, shall we?”
We followed him inside to where my mother was belting out orders to her kitchen staff. I cringed every time her voice grew just a little bit louder. “She sounds lovely.” Adam whispered and I fought to contain my plastered on polite smile.
“Eloise, Darcy is here.” Dad leaned into the doorway, shielding us from the sight of her. “Please come meet her new gentleman.” It wasn't a suggestion as he had worded it to be. It was more of a get your ass in here and make us look good kind of thing.
My mother was polished as always. I can’t remember a single time in my life that I had ever seen her looking less than perfect. From her dark colored hair falling in perfect waves around her shoulders, her complete face of makeup without a stitch of sweat, all the way down to her polished Valentino boots.
“Eloise Thomas,” she reached out her hand to Adam after a moment of inspection.
“Adam Thornbriar, pleasure to meet you, ma’am.” I held my breath as she raised her eyebrow at him.
“Where are you from, Adam?”
“Alabama, ma’am.”
“Ah, I could tell from the uneducated sounding accent. Please, come into the living room, I will get someone to bring you all a drink.” Mom waved her hand like a goddamn showcase model toward the room off the west end of the house.
“Wow, she's just a step away from a true Southern Belle, ain't she? What’s behind curtain number one?” Adam mumbled under his breath and I had to reign in my snort of laughter.
“What is it that you do, Adam?” Dad asked as I carefully tucked my dress under my thighs and sat down on the leather couch.
“I am in the Marine Corps, sir.” Adam winked at me before turning his attention back to my father. “I’m a scout sniper.”
By the look on my father’s face I had a long conversation ahead of me. Just not in front of the company, no, never in front of the company. They expected me to be with men who were studying to be doctors or lawyers, not a military man.
“Well, thank you for your service.” My jaw damn near hit the floor when the words came out of Dad’s mouth. Adam didn't say anything, he just nodded, and squeezed my knee in reassurance.
“What do you do, sir? Darcy told me that you and your wife were both doctors? What kind?”
“Check and Mate, Adam.” I thought, giving him a mental high five.
I had to give it to him, he was good. If there was anything my parents loved talking about it was themselves. If he could just keep them talking and being polite this could be an almost painless afternoon.

❣❣❣

“Darcy, darling,” Mother said as I paused the glass of wine just at my lips. “Please tell me you are no longer friends with that dreadful little tattooed rat girl.”
“Mother,” I warned, setting my glass back down. “Her name is Ellie and she is not a rat.” We had the same conversation every time I came to visit.
“Don’t defend her, Darcy. She’s a terrible little thing to look at. She looks like a God awful gang member or something.” Mother was on her third glass of wine just with dinner and when she was this far gone there was no arguing with her. I sighed, shaking my head as I patted the corner of my mouth with my napkin.
“She’s my best friend and a great person...” I gritted my teeth, gripping my fork too tight.
“She’s a troubled girl and you know it.” Mother snapped.
“With all due respect, ma’am,” Adam sat down his fork, folding his hands over his chest. “I know Ellie, she’s the girlfriend of my best friend, Atlas.”
“Your point?” Mother cut him off before he could finish.
“My point, ma’am, is that if Ellie wasn't a good woman, I wouldn't let her within twenty feet of Atlas. Yes, Miss. Ellie has had a rough hand dealt to her but I believe that she makes the very best of the situation given to her. You might want to trust your daughters judgment a little better. Ellie wouldn't be where she is today if it wasn't for Darcy.”
I knew my mouth was hanging open and I could all but feel the steam rolling off my mother across from me. “You have some nerve coming into my home and--”
“Mother, Adam is right.” I said hesitantly.
“Excuse me?”
“Adam is right.” I repeated myself with a little more confidence. “You should not question my choices. I’m a grown woman and I have been taught very well who I should and should not trust. My parents had high standards and so do I.”
“Hardly!” She scoffed as I took a deep breath.
“I will not have this discussion with you again.” I said with finality.
“Clearly hanging around this young lady has made you lose your manners.” Her eyes narrowed at me.
“If there is anyone lacking manners here, I do believe it’s you.” Adam’s spoke evenly beside me. “I mean, come on now, lady. Your daughter is a good girl. She doesn't get in trouble, she don’t do drugs, and she makes good grades. How can you think she is hanging around with the wrong crowd when she does so much right? She got rid of the guy that was treating her like shit, removed herself from a bad situation without any help from y’all. You know who helped her though? Ellie Grant. You know who stood by her when she cried over it? Again, Miss. Ellie did. You know who threatened-- Alright that ain't a good example. Anyway, my point is you have a beautiful, bright daughter who has a great head on her shoulders. She doesn't let anyone or anything get in her way. Maybe you just need to get knocked off your high, white horse. At your age though, that ground’s going to be a mighty hard fall.”
“Holy shit...” I whispered as the table grew quiet. “I do believe this is our cue to exit before Atlantis sinks for a second time...”
"I have never!" Mother started as I held my breath.
Without a word, Adam stood up next to me, shrugging as he pulled out my chair. “Thank you for a lovely meal. I’m sure the workers in the back would appreciate a compliment coming from the queen of Atlantis.” He grinned, nodding to my father who just sat there. He looked as shocked as I felt.
“We will speak later, Darcy Eloise.” My mother hissed as we walked around the table.
“I have no doubt about that.” Adam slipped my coat over my shoulders, holding the door open for me. “Thanks for yet another fantastic family get together.” I pressed my lips into a thin line before heading out the door.
“Nice to meet, y’all. Plan on seeing ya’ again real soon. Don’t be strangers, ya’ hear?” Adam smiled before shutting the door behind him.
“Oh my God, Oh my God, Oh my God...” I repeated at least a dozen times on the way to my car. Adam whistled spinning the keys around his finger as he held the door open for me. He folded his long frame into the drivers side, starting the car, and finally looking over at me with a bright smile.
“I think that went real well, don’t you? The food kind of sucked though. Want to go grab a burger?”
Adam freakin’ Thornbriar...


XOXO,
Ashley

P.S. Here's a little something from Having Hart.